alright.
was just passing by.
din even have my d and t textbook for studying
poor me,
have to study d and t through internet.
haiz.
realli feel like giving up.
we are onli left one month to fight the war.
haiz.
i am confused actually.
i wonder if i wanna remain in my life now or life after the"war"
who knows?
everyone will be in their busy life again.
-sighz-
somehow i still hope that old friends can get together.
i still miss him.
i dunno why.
-sighz-
Things have not been going well..
-sighz-
even lost track of the last time blogging.
my life just simply sux now..
everything din turn out to be expected..
wad i am doing now all day long was just study and study!
wtf~
haiz..
its hard to summaries wad've happen these few weeks..
but i have finally come to a decision between me and her.
i realli hope i will not regret although i know it may not be the best decison..
felt so bitch when i couldn help thinking of him these few nights..
haiz..
i'm so confused..
i hate my life!=x
haiz..
i'm alone again..
had a bad stomach ache today.
but nobody cares.
nobody asked.
hardly anyone..-sighz-
i'm nobody in their eyes.
maybe someone whom hang around with them in school onli.
i'm always left out.
i'have resigned to fate..
thanks for those who are concern between me and her.
we are not getting that well..
we are just frm different world,
but hope things will get fine as time goes ba..
-shrugged-
gong,
dun be too sad le.
everything is fated..
u must be strong k..
-sighz-
hope things goes out fine for ya..
life is getting meaninless.
with no friends.
no money.
nthing.
i had lost sumthing..
sui ran wo hui shang xin...
friday was a tough match.
unity against sr maraget.(nt sure of the spelling)
haiz.
who lost for around 10 pts.
everyone wasn on form.
even travern.
din know how to cheer her up..
haiz..
coach as damn angry and disappointed with them.
we were out in the semi finals.
everyone were feeling down..
crying..
sighz..
everything is over..
tears had dried up isn it?
realli hope they feel better now..
hope they do not blame each other..
hope they will get up from where they fall..
they still have such a long way to go..
arggg..
just hope everything will be fine..
alright.
there were mani emotion today.
haiz.
i was glad that i could get my dream result.
but i am realli sad to see friends around me crying.
i realli do not want to hurt them by letting them more stress after knowing my result.
everyone was like,
din expect to get their own result.
haiz.
wad's happening..
i realli dunno should feel sad or happy..
just hope all those who going to retake can really get good grades..
whole body acheing..
think is cox of yesterday trainning ba!
but it was fun!;p
well,
now then i realise that being a coach is not an easy task as wad we think.
it's just soooo tiring can!
but i guess i enjoy it =X
good luck for tml match gers..!!~
fuck.
still cant finish my d and t today..
haiz.
forget about it.
woke up early in the morning to make the shushi for the gers..
then went school for d and t..
skip my remedia which make selva very angry i think?
and ... she's calling my parents!!!
oh my god!
gotta explain lots to my parents i think..
she's really treating me very well..
ppl who are around me should know..
haiz.
i dunno ..
i think i'm startin to lurve her more and more..
i hope so.
but i realli dun wan to see her so stress..
suffering just becoze she wants to make me happy..
i dun need that..
i just want her to be happy..
realli.
i know she is trying very hard.
and i am here doing nthing..
i felt so bad.
haiz.
god bless her.
-amen-
thanks for u guys concern.
i lurve u all too~!
well,
com had been down for quite a while..
that's why nv get to update my blog lar..
got a lot to say..
to everyone around me..
but realli dunno where to start..
[michelle(x2),ruyi,ruth,xinyue,chuting and gang..]
sorry that i had not been spenting time with u all..
although i know i am not in u all group all the while.
i mean at least i did spent the time like eating during lunch break with u all,
haiz..
i dunno wad to say.
maybe its my fault that i spent all my time with the basketball players nowadays.
ii'm really sorry.
maybe u all will feel that i don have the need to apologise..
but i still hope i can be part of u all group at least in school yar?
[michelle]
know u had been feeling good although most ppl thought u were so happy nowadays.
haiz..
i had the feeling to talk to you long ago..
but i know if u feel like saying..
u will say de rite?
maybe we are not really that close lar..
so i dun realli dare to ask whethe u have any problems..
but just hope u do take care
and find mi if u have any problems k?
[gong]
i understand things are realli hard on you nowadays.
i know i should sumtimes try to understand you..
sorry for my unreasonable sumtimes..
haiz..
i'm just too stress out i think?
sorry..
alright..
finally i 'm back!!
everything was as usual.
onli a bit stress out in studies..
but become more and more lazy each day..
argggg..
nvm..
got her support..
i will do my best?
maybe ba..
hahaz..
hope everyone is doing well..
good luck guys!!
adores!
`[[ him.
`[[ dolphins.
`[[ Pigs.
`[[ cakes.
`[[ bed.
`[[ all her friends.
hates!
`[[ backstabbers
`[[ alone
`[[ lousy grades
`[[ insects
`[[ periods
`[[ her life
`[[ being accused
*taggified`]]
